Chad Michael Murray is bringing holiday cheer to millions in Netflix’s new movie, The Merry Gentlemen, but it almost wasn’t to be. The actor, 43, revealed he almost quit acting after starring on One Tree Hill amid his meteoric rise to fame — and the pressures that came with it.

Even if they’re not talking about that, sometimes your head goes to a negative place, and I know mine really did,” the “Cinderella Story” actor admitted.

Chad Michael Murray admitted that he wished to disappear after starring in One Tree Hill and experiencing skyrocketing fame. Speaking to Interview Magazine, Murray admitted that he “one hundred percent” wanted to quit acting after the show.